Spitting out the green water particles from her body, she clutched her stomach tightly. As it hurt so badly. She hadn’t eaten anything in past days. Even water wasn’t getting down her throat. As if her heart had dropped down to her stomach completely and it felt heavy. Her body was getting weaker day by day. This days her skin was more pale then usual. Her eyes seemed lifeless. The most cutest girl of the house, had lost her cuteness. And they will think its a bad eye, unaware of the fact its a failed love. Lying on her bed, She would stare at the white ceiling for hours and they would stare back at her, coldly.
Darkness was consuming her more day by day. The more she will try to stand up and get back to her normal self, the more her body won’t cooperate and she will fail, undoubtedly. Day by day the people around her were losing her slowly, gradually. As if she could see that too, her life getting from a full of life to a lifeless adventure.
She was never like this. She was a girl full of dreams, hopes and faith. She used to live life to its fullest no matter what. Her smile was something, no one can challenge. No one can take it away. But what did love did to her? What he did to her? What had she ever done to deserve this punishments? Had this world turn so cruel that people just come in life and talk lovey according to their moods and leave? Just come play with someone’s heart and leave when that toy is no more entertaining.
“A beautiful distraction.” That was what someone she loved with her whole soul called her. Yeah! May be, she deserved to be called this much only. Expecting more then this was stupid of her ownself. Didn’t she knew? What a typical mess she is! How could she expect someone’s love talks to love? How could she expect being loved back? She can’t.
She knows this all already. But what about that naive heart? How to make it understand? How to tell it, you can’t be loved? Just say me how? Love is a far away thing, how to tell it they don’t want to stay in your life? How to just..? Her fingers halt and her pen drops. Her head fells on her study. Her body slowly giving up again. Tears streaming down and making the pages of her diary wet. Her heart bleeding more then ever. Each passing minute slow as an hour. Her soul lifeless, yet felt far away from end. How to survive was a question popping in her mind? Living was a far away thing, she had no idea of just surviving life. Every breath she took was breathless. All those memories, bitter-sweet, those words said, everything was eating her up. Her heart wasn’t ready to believe they were all false. Her heart was bound to just believe one thing, out of the blue, apart the odds, he will come and save her from drowning. A hug and a ‘Don’t leave, stay’ would heal her back completely all over again. She will get her life back.
One day, may be, or for sure, she will see this day come true, her heart always dreams of. Every human can leave her side, betray her heart. But she had asked about their bond to unite from the king of kings. And that king of kings is so merciful. He testes the ones he loves, he mends them, but won’t let them break. He knows what exactly she needs. Its just she had to put back her all strength and get up all over again with lots of hope and faith just keep going on, passing this thorny way to reach the merciful, beautiful, blessed destination. She can’t give up, she ain’t giving up, not now, not ever, no matter what.